Sunday, May 28, 2023

Living In The Waiting Room

"Till today the biggest achievement in our country is to leave it". If you know, you know.
It is been forever in my life, I have been feeling this.

The life. Or, the limbo?

- Oizys.

Thursday, May 18, 2023

Random Diary Entry - 18th May 2023

Officially rejected from every uni this year!

Well. Done and dusted. Rejected from every university this cycle. I have no energy, no patience, and no hope left. I'm tired of people around me packing their bags and updating their lives. I hate that I can't be happy for them because all these rejections have filled me up with self- hatred. Every time someone gives me sympathy or a positive message, I feel enraged. Feels like platitudes. Then I feel guilty about feeling enraged because deep down a part of me knows, they mean well. I need to find a job. Job rejections are kicking me when I am already down. Shit hell. I wish I could disappear.


- Oizys.